HEY BABES,
ALL THE CHEER LEADERS,
2PM AT MY HOUSE 2MORO K?
TRY NOT TO BE LATE=)
THE BAYSHORE(grey colour one) NOT XBayshore parkX( black and white one)
MEET AT THE CLUB HOUSE, 2ND FLOOR
ask around, ppl will help you if you get lost=)

soo excited, pls dont wear skirts, errm, just a tshirt and shorts

you know i am so sad i lost my 4 cds i had burned, all those songS,...
but i just made another tempory one.

this SANDY, GRACE AND ALICA are not coming,...
the rest still must come ah!!!!

oh well, today was pretty messy, i dont really know whats going on, i just felt my way around-_-.... i think our state of cheerleading now, is such a failure,...=( i came up with 5 eights and tried to teach the other cheerleaders,.... well,.... i was in for a shock....hahaha, they are all so cute=)

i mean, last year, everyone could dance nice-nice and it was damn easy to put the message(dance) across. i dont know la, actually, to be honest, i didn do much last year, i think zan and beau did most of the work, all we had to do is to be present at all meetings and learn the steps all cheographed and done up for us, just that. we dont have to worry where to stand, what steps, formation, timing, beats, movement, cheers, when to meet, where to meet,what time, what day the practices are, what kind of skirt, the colour of the skirt, where to get the skirt, how to sew the skirt, nothing of that sort.
all we needed to do is to do all the steps we needed to, thats all. so easy, so peasy.

but now, i am in this totally new class, with me, trying to get the things in order, cheographing, teaching the others, and basically do everything? oh well, i really need help!!!! someone do the cheographing for me!!! its tiring i tell you, and its not easy at all.=( .

ok, so all i need the cheerleaders to do is,... to be present at all meetings, and be enthu about it!!!! come on, dont just stand around when you know that our
routine is not even a 1/4 done up yet!!!! and not even bother asking what is going on!!!!
MYMY,... its a compettion here baby! oh well, i assume some of you are not interested=( we need to be 101% excited bout it!!!!! its the joy of going for a battle, knowing that there is a chance to win!!!

wow, wow, i hope that i'm not the only one here who is enthu about it-_-. i felt that special feeling before, when you work extra hard about that thingy and then win, your whole soul is like being lifted up!!!! so nice,.... then everyone would be soo happy about it and we can go and tell our form teachers that we are the champion!!!!!, oh wow, then all those smiles from our classmates and all those smiles from other schoolmates and all the praising from other classes' eh, your cheer very nice leh!!!!'
you must have that thought in you!!!!
but, nothings ever easy,.... it wont just be well laid out for us la.
so,...... please please be very very excited and joyful about the whole cheerleading thingy!!! ohno,,... how can i force you to be excited?=(

dont you ever think that the steps are just laid down nicely for you k? behide every single detail is someone slogging their butts out to get the things right.and,... be grateful, that you wont have to squeeze your brain juices out just to get 1eight of the cheo.
you know it reminds me of a part of emimen's when i'm gone lyrics, it goes' daddy's writing a song, the song aint go write itself'


hai,..... can you people care more about cheerleading?!!!!well,.... if you think you do, thats too little!!!!! come on, give me/us ideas, steps, music, cheer, or just by being present, its perhaps the least you can do.....help me!!!!

ohoh nomo!!!! i think i do sound like a bitch everyone hates cuz i push too much....hahaha, but i like!!!! but if everyone totally involve themselves, there would be no problem at all=)

so ya!!!!! go cheerleaders!!!! and btw, the 12 of us did not even get to meet and sit down and talk and discuss about cheerleading before, can you believe that?!!!!!

well, all 12 of us are reminded here again to come to my house to practice and discuss bout impt stuff. well, what to do....the practices are impt, dont you ever think i really have nothing better to do ah!!!

THIS SUNDAY, 26TH FEBUARY, 2PM START.
26 BAYSHORE ROAD
THE BAYSHORE.
BUS=10, 13, 14, 43, 48
or take to tanah merah mrt,then take 14(but i think its very complicating, i get lost sometimes)
CLUB HOUSE

SOO EXCITING!!!! the thought that we are finally meeting up, gonna have music and space to dance, is enough to make me happy!!!!

people EXPECTED to come:
alicia
atiqah
angelica
ceri
dahlia
dana(me, hahaha)
grace= she say she cant make it
jocelyn
nicole
sandy
shila
stephanie

yup,....
ok,.... i think we are going to have our skirt dark blue and red!!!! oh,.... so nice!!!!
opps!!! you heard that,.... dont copy har the other classes!!!!


you know i was thinking that 2/2 and 2/3 are our strong strong competitors. they got all those dancers!!!! well, i am also a dancer, but hai.... we just have to work extra hard!!!!


ok,...
errm,...
ya,...


baby, dont get enough of it, get much more of it, come on here lets fight fight fight, the champion is going to be US all right!!!!(oh, i dont know why, i just made that up!!!!)
hahahaha

hey, you know what, i am sooo confusing, i confuse people around me and i confuse myself=(

i dont even know what i am doing la

i think i really forget things too easily
its like, even if i know that someone did me wrong, i will like totally forget about it and become friends again!
its not that its bad....
but its like in a certain way, it can be seen as hypocrital, yup. that BIG word

but,.... i cant help it leh, i dont like to hate people, its difficult to remember all those nasty things and making an effort to bring the dislike out of me

i like everyone=), i mean, no one has an evil thought at everytime of the day,right? and every single person has a nice side to her la(i hope)=)

however, sometimes i dont know what i am doing, like one moment i dont like that person, then, the next, i can be happily be chatting away with that same person
it just mean that, i forgot bout the whole negative thought already=1

i wonder if its normal,...

cuz, some people really see it as hypocrital, like, i hate that person, but i still chat with her, so fake,....that kind of thing....

i dont know la, i cant help it, SAVE ME!!!!

however, the real fact is that i really cannot remember,
i dont have much space in my tiny-_-brain to store all that bad things about other people.
i cant even remember to bring my social studies textbk when i've test the next day can,...
its too packed with stuff like studies, dance, lyrics, oh well,... and to feed my hamster!!!

hating, need alot of energy, i tell you
i have learnt that from last time,... and it is a horrible feeling,...its better to be happy la.

but,.... there is a exception, that is, if you dont see me as a friend,... i wont too, simple as that=)

hahaha,..... this whole thing is crap la,.... hahaha
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you know what???!!!! today gita and syzana molested me !!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know they followed me into my emtpy classroom today and when they gave me that lecherious look,.... i knew sth is going to be wrong.
i wanted to ran out,... but before i could do that,.... they went to grab hold of me!!!!!!!!
and i was screaming and screaming and i was struggling and crying,
and i felt damn helpless because it was 2 against 1!!!!!
no one could hear me cuz they were 'screaming' happily and excitedly too. i have never felt that feeling before, it was horrible!!!!
normally when the two rapist gita and syzana get 'aroused' and they try to get a victim,...
and its usually me,...., there would be many people around and they would just be like 'you guys stop it la, she so poor thing', there were bright lightings and all that, sooo it wasnt so bad.

but now, its like there wasnt even a single soul in sight, and the lights, fans were off, the windows were closed.... so creepy.....and the feeling of being overpowered by burly people bigger than you and not being able to do anything about it, knowing whats going to happen, but unable to escape, thats the worst thing man,..... the fear imprinted in you is bloody horrible. i truely sympathize with all those rape victims..... i wonder how they overcome that fear in them.... how brave....

i was covering myself with my hands and walking around dazed after that, i think i was temporary traumatized by what had happened. for a moment after that i did not even know what i was doing, i competely lost myself.... it was scary i tell you. those 2 girls are not that simple as you think.....
FREAK YOU LA!!!!! ONE OF THESE DAYS!!!!! I
AM GOING TO GET HELP FROM PAT AND KUKU!!!!!! HAHAHA, THEN YOU KNOW,....
i will get pat to chase you all around untill you get breathless,....
then get strong kuku to catch you up,....
AND I, HAHAHAHA, WILL PERSONALLY TAKE MY OWN REVENGE!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA, YOU GUYS WATCH OUT!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
DAHLA FOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAK!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you for to SUBJECTING my pleas!!!!!!!!

helping me scan the geo notes i had carelessly forgotten to bring home!!!!!!!

SO,ya,....i had specially put your name in your favourite color!!!


OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANT STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW CAN I FORGET MY GEO NOTES???????/!!!!!!!
I LEFT IT IN CLASSS!!!!!!!!!!!

AND MY GEO CA IS TOMMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THE NOTES ARE BLOODY IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANT HELP BUT THINK THAT I AM BLOODY STUPID!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday, i forgot to bring my social studies textbook home to study, NOW I FORGOT THE DAMN NOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!! I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT!!!!!! all those ppl WHO seceretly HATE me, LAUGH your head off!!!!! GO AHEAD!!!!! *hahahahhahahaha* I TRUELY DESERVE IT!!!!!!
no wonder my mum always say i cant do anything right!!!!!=(((((


I THINK I CANT HANDLE TO HAVE 2 CAS IN A DAY, I WILL DEFINATELY FORGET STH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont even dare tell my mum cuz she will surely scold me cuz i have already forgotten to bring my ss textbk yesterday. and the stupid eportal does not have the notes that mrs khoo gave=(((

i will then have to make use of the textbk lor=(((( though all i need is in the summarised version in the notes and all the impt points she pointed out.....

iHATE myself!!!!!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

HOW CAN I EVER FORGET SOMETHING LIKE THIS????!!!!!


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sorry, to lament bout sth as irritating as this, but,...... if not i will die if i keep this to myself



Any kind soul can scan and send the notes to me????=) do your good deed today!!!!!
i will love you to bits!!!!!!!!!!!! love you love you love you.......
pretty please????

clarity_within@hotmail.com, can send here or through msn=)


thanks,....*as i wipe away the tears of joy and gratefulness* i wont ever forget you.....

I think i was extremely emotional today
i could not stand it, i dont remember the last time i felt this way la, it was horrible=(

before recess, i felt so alone, and i actually wrote a song during geo lesson ok, i felt so much better after that, it didnt sound right though, and the tune was somewhat boring, so didnt care more,
i wanted to cry, but i tried to hold it back, i dont know why, i was damn stressed today and well, yesterday too. but it became serious again, i did not feel like me, i felt werid,i want to hear my own happy voice again=(

but thanks god, my friends cheered me up during the recess, and i perked up, fiona aka fifi carried me all around and i was practically screaming. wasnt much of a success of thinking for cheer steps, steph and i were so bloody shy, so many ppl in class la.
(anyway, i came up with 2 eights just now.so happy!!! going to teach steph when we are both free)

anyhow,... at the end of the school, we got back my chem test, and guess what? i got 10 upon 40, ya, shocked?! i was so immune, i did not feel upset or what i just felt,...nothing, i guessed i expected it anyway,.... then i went around and realised that no one failed, at least not as bad as mine. i still was like walking aimlessly round,... i dont know, so,...i went to pack my stuff...

suddenly, all i knew was i walked straight out of the class and went to 3e6,. i ignored everyone i saw,.. i actually ran in. and the moment i saw kuku, i ran to hug her and started crying,and i could not stop.
i guessed she was shocked,' but all she did was comfort me, 'dana dont cry ok, what happened?' but i just carried on crying, i did not care more, i was too tired.
then pat saw me, and came over. but when i saw her, i started crying again, and we talked and stuff. she did not asked me what happened, she just sat there and looked and comforted me.
then guess what, gita came in and i started crying again, i think i just miss the TOOTERIANS too much, and then git called yaya here,...
when we were together, nothing could tear us apart, we were a clique and we were ALL best friends.
i miss having a best friend, i miss having a clique!!! i MISS PAT!!! I MISS KUKU!!! I MISS GIT AND I MISS YAYA!!!!I MISS THE TOOTERIANS!!!

i thought i could handle it in my new class, with me from my old class alone. thinking that there will be a whole bunch of nice ppl there to make friends with and maybe become best friends, but i naively forgot that they have their own cliques from last years and may not accept a new different person in it.

i realise that its the same, like i wont allow anyone to come into the tooterians, its like the 5 of us, thats all.period. we went through thick and thin, and no one, no matter how nice a person she is, would not be able to understand or feel how we felt, nor can we feel or understand her. its like the spaces are fully occupied.

i remember last year pat and i went everywhere together, during recess, we always ate the same thing,when its malay food, it would be rice, curry veg, egg, and potato,..and chilli. we would queue up together do everything together, we sit beside each other as well, share secrets and study together. everything. it was only that i loved going to school, friends all there to help and bring a smile to my face. when anything happens, they are there for me to lean on, no problem.
and i miss that feeling that whatever you do, there would be someone behind you, and i would never feel alone. never, with MY tooterians.

i really hope that i am making a big deal out of nothing. i hope i am wrong, everything is fine, i was just thinking too much. maybe when i wake up tomorrow, the tooterians would be back, we would still be at the tooterians corner with our laughing sessions. *slaps myself* immpossible dana,its too late....
its nice to imagine though....

you wont understand, you have your best friend.
you know, i get envious when i see alexa taking 'revenge' on grace becuz dahlia bullied kuanyee. its like if you bullied my best friend, YOUR best friend is going to be in trouble!' that kind of thing. i thought that was really touching, and i could not do anything, i cant get involved, i dont have a bestfriend with me anymore

i mean, everyone in my class is really loveable they are all so fun and kind. just that maybe its not time yet.

i get confused, my class, my friends, my juniors, all that talking behind me, my test, my results,

luckily for me, pat is still in my reach, i can still walk to her, not forgetting that she would gradually become someother persons's best friend. but whatever, at least i had her to talk to today. we were having our private conversations at the video shop, eating instants and jelly beans.i felt a whole bloody lot better, i love you pat!!!!!

perhaps,...perhaps,... i am too paranoid....oh,... i wanna play with my ham ham,... i wanna sleep, i wanna study geo and i wanna sing!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven regained my full voice ever since my cough.....i miss singing


and i just try to find some hope to try to hold on to, it never ends, its so unfair....

I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you love me but you won't
When you find out who I am
I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
And now I'm in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
[Chorus]
Coz I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding onto you
I tried so hard
To be the one (be the one)
I don't like who I've become

Won't keep my mouth shut any more
I've had my share of closing doors
And now I know I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late

[Chorus]
Coz I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding onto you
I tried so hard
To be the one (be the one)
I don't like who I've become
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
I kept it inside of me for all this time
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Thought that I could make it work if I just tried
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
But I’m sorry to admit that I have lived a lie

I've kept my mouth shut for too long
And now I know that it was wrong
I wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should’ve never gone this far

Won't keep my mouth shut any more
(won't keep my mouth shut any more)

OMG, I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!
everythings in place!!!

oh, and AMELIA would want me to PUBLICISE/SHOUTOUT this for her.

Amelia says:

I HAVE A NEW DARLING AND HER NAME IS QING YUAN. I HAVE NOT CHANGED MY IDOL. and i am JEALOUS of DANA cuz she gets to talk to DAHLIAH!
( hahahaha, the last part is i add in one la)

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i would like to thank dahliah for helping out and taging my board!yup!
(for those who cant see the board, it all the way down the smaller section at,'we need to talk')

well,. finally, i can blog bout happy things

you know what, my grandfather made sashimi for me????
i was so bloody damn touched la. i call him Yeye. my yeye was a chinese chef last time and he can cook lots and lots of yummy food!!! like, dimsim and noodles and fish and chicken and soup!!! though he retired long long ago, he will still cook for us very saturday when we go to his house.
so ya, he made sashimi for me leh!!! you jealous or not?
it was smoke salmon and another type of unknown fish. i was the only living object there that eats that stuff but he still bother to buy and make all that JUST for me leh!!!!

wanna know why, cuz i am his favourite grandkid!!! he always ask me what i wanted to eat everyweek instead of asking my brother or cousins , haha, i am soo happy. you know once yeye made french fries for me cuz i ask for it?

he is always smiling and has a pot belly, haha, so cute!!! i will try to take a photo of him next time k?

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you know what, i cried so much yesterday,
my hamham got injured!!!! papilian, my hamster was injured, i am reaaly afraid that her hand cant move anymore, i just started crying non-stop and held her close to me,
i finally understood how a parent would feel if their child gets hurt
actually though it happened cuz papilian was so naughty and climb the raillings and then her hand got caught, i was also at fault. the cage wasnt clipped together properly thats why, pap's hand could get caught in between.
at first, pap was dangling on the second level of the cage and i helped it down but i thought nothing of it, but then when i saw her limping, i was so shocked

i really hope papilian gets well again, i love you papy!!!


dahliah and i were msging today, and realised that the both of us wear pyjamas till very late leh!!!
and now is 5.30 and she just changed out of her pjs la!!!!


well, i wonder what will happen tomorrow, its DANCE day and ya, may god bless natasha, amelia and i.

.....i love you everybody=)

you know what,
i felt so weird today. i am like so high, and i cant stop talking
and when i talk i talk so loud. i am sooo egoistic and sarsastic today.
i wondered what happened. :(
must be Amelia's fault la
she keep saying what, dahliah, camelia and qing yuan and all that silly stuff and me being short and lastly and the most important, about doris

well, today i was sitting in class and i thought,
i am not going to pretend nothing's wrong already,
i am not going to pretend that we are still good friends, doris(a made-up name)
and i am not about to forgive you, at least not now .
it was just a simple the misunderstanding between the 2 of us and you made it SO complicating and backstabbed me to my darling junior A*a and made her hate me so much when nothing happened in the first tiny place.
made me the culprit(when theres nothing wrong at all and accused me for... ?nothing? )and then A*a be the victim and the person who blew up everthing

fortunately, A*a and i made-up and then A*a told me what you had been doing behind my back, all the untruths and propaganda and i realised that you were the one behind everything. then you cleverly pushed all the blame to A*a. and then be the "peace-maker".
soo,... i was just wondering if who was the culprit here(doris) and the victim( me and A*a) and then the police(me again) who took it to my stride and went to ask A*a what happened and why she hated me.
then, tha-da!!!
the truth to behold
YOU
the coldblooded person
so double face
one moment talk to me
then the next go bitch about me
when alll along i did not think you would be someone like that
i tot you were the innocent type ok,

oh, whatever, i dont care
this is not a hate post

i never hate anybody

its bad to hate

hey, i am so happy

DanaLeong
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