i feeling like crying now, omg i am.
and its like my brother's watching this stupid cartoon, laughing beside me.
rahhhh,... i am not sad. i am just not happy. ok fine,
i am upset. its like the whole of today,.. i wasnt really in the mood to talk or anything.
yes bel, "you feel the need to talk about it, but you just dont want to talk right?"
i was just so letargic.
fortunately for me i had my dancers, we walked all the way to the hostel place to have lunch.
its so fun being with them, bel, jana, zan, nat, jamie, shi and lis nat.
perfected my beats,
which was the one thing i felt i should be proud off.
cuz, its like i lost it after so long not doing it.
(in case you are wondering whats beats,... its like hand stands in the air)
the feeling of going against gravity and putting all your weight on your hands is just fanstastic.
that few moments of staying in air, makes me smile when i come down.
haha,... yup. its a big deal to me.
i fell in love with sailor stuffs. love my bag and the earrings i bought. haha, i want the sailor bra set!!!
omg,.... i feel so drained.
i thought i didnt care or bother, its just that i decieved myself so many times.
but i realised that it really hurts inside.
what happened?
didnt know it matters to you.
i want that old weiping back.
jana, me and bel at the swing on my birthday.
omg,... sweet pleasant memories, our swensens cake from our dancers for the oct babes=)
haha,... the day when 2 crazy poks popped by my house.
at the roxy changing room!!! lovely, with the new bottoms we're trying out=)
hahahaaha!, ppl thought we were crazy la!
priceless,... the laughter and the smiles
opps!!!hahaha,... look at our damn expressions!
my darlings!!! steph and ting tong
it never ends,....
ohh!!! it was the day after our practice! at pp toliet.
nat, mua, bel(again) jana and zan!!
at janas house swimming with sunnies. haha
vain pots.
nothings more than to chill out with my best of friends man,..
random pics,....=)
ytd,.. yes,.. its ytd,... was amazingly fun!!!!
i went out with steph and bel,...it was suppose to be a ciaps meeting ok!! jana la!!!
the 2 butts came to my house early in the morning to try to meet me,..
but the princess was still asleep,.. no time to bother bout low-class peasents. hahaha
ok,.. finally after like 1 hour,.. i rushed down like a penguin with bake beans, tuna, bread and lots of chips. i am not a walking mama shop ok,
they la!! told me to bring down as much food as i have!
ok,... we were at the studio, chatted and painted our nails,.. bitched bout fendi,... tried to make a cheer,.. to no avail. hahaha
they persuaded me to go shopping with them,...
had so much fun!!!
went over to raffles city,... walked ard and i bought my pencil case from this new brand called ANIMAL.
hahah!!! my pencil case has 2 names!!! made by me,..
firstly its the computer lab case!!!
cuz i imagine myself bring that to the lab.
2ndly its the roti case
cuz it really looks like a loaf of bread!!!
and i love it alot!!! hahahaha
finally man. finally.
steph looks like a hot car seller babe!!!
bel looks like a china doll!
hahah
both pretty la!! realised that we are all perfectionists. ohh
spent loads of time at the roxy shop,... its feels damn homely man!!! and the sales person are so tender!! hahaha
i know tender doesnt make sense. but i just feel like writing it. !
i tried this exciting jeans bobby shorts,.. i've never seen sth like that before! its so nice and the 2 of them had to admit it looked gorgeous on me!!!
steph bel and i went into 1 changing room and took a freakin long time fooling around and raping each other!!!!
kidding la!!!!! who would want to rape the chicken backside and cow's nehnehpok!!!!
who is which,... you decide.
hahah!!!!! omg!!! it was so fun ok!!!! we were laughing like mad,.. and when we decide its time to leave,... no one dare to go out first cuz we were so noisy inside and there were only the sales person,... and ,... we knew we werent buying anything!!!
expensive la woman!!
hahaha,...
oh wells,...
went to buy bels jeans. oh man,..that girl
camwhored alot
will buy the man's shirt with steph sometime soon=)
i cant rmb anything else leh,.. oh jana is so wasted!!! ah ya,.. missed out so much!!!!
and i am angry ok!!! both times never even tell me to my face that you cant make it!!
ok dancing tmr. goona bring my radio. i am wondering how i am going to walk back home with it.
man,....
whats wrong with the school???!!! dont even have a bloody radio!!!
anyhow,.. i look forward to tmr,...
i wanna dance
and i realise that my abs are disappearing,...=(((((((
the period i dint dance cuzed so much!!!
rahhhh.
till then.
and i wanna believe you.
when you tell me that everything's ok
yeah i try try to believe you
but not today,...
tomorrow-avril lavgine
false false false hopes. bleh
confusing la!!!!
i dont know what to think ok,...
i felt trusurrounded by this huge mass of white puffy clouds,
which are amazingly not cute,..
instead, i took a long while to realise they were just,
haze,..
making me feel all bloated up and choked
so tense and overwhelmed, so insecure and so upset
whats the problem,
what is the question i heed to solve.
oh my god.
fed me up with all kinds of rubbish that was disgused as pretty little sunshines
emotions
be it a simple smile of happiness
or a frown that depicts sadness
i want neither
things should be pure,...
elated signs, grim expressions.
neither.
when you are brought to another stage of emotional high,...
you will change the expectations of the so called happiness,
you would raise your standards
you will realise that sth you had never knew
could be of so much fun and excitment.
little did you know,...
or rather, never had you gotten ready your backup plan,...
your stablising of balance.
or that there would be no safety net for you to fall on,.. to catch your weight
when all of a sudden
everything that you trust
decided to pull out on you
to draw back from where everything was beautiful and perfect.
or rather to where nothing was created or formed.
oh dear
you look around and found nothing
the debris?
the collaspe?
the sacrness?
maybe.
ouch,... its alright, it will be fine tomorrow.
you have plasters.
then you will see,.. you would be more awake and
you would shine brighter,
than yesterday.
you put on a bloody smile,... the hollowness glows from inside.
now,
you begin to learn.
fendi,... ewww.
omg,... todays a rollor coaster man,.... happy didnt get to see her today! yeah!!!
i really dont know whats going on tomorrow, dont let it be cancelled pls!!! jana!!!ciaps!!!!
anyhow,...
today there were lots of talks and all that,...and there was one time about the power 98 talk. wa lao!!! free jesse mccarney cds!!!! my god!!! pppl went crazy.hahaha
there was like the deepa raya concert!!! i really enjoyed it leh!!!
the dancers look so pretty!!! Nat,. lis nat and shila!! hahaha,... yaya,.. as usual,... as thin. hhahaa pretty la pretty la!!
you know what!!!
after school,.. i wanted to go eat pasta mania or whatever at parkway,...
then jelly pangsei me la!!!
then i walked around school aimlessly ok,... for the first time.... then guess who i saw!!!
tessa!!!
i am like saying like shes some big star, but shes not la. hahaha
she very funny leh,... but the first thing i rmb her doing was giving me her report book.
i was like,... ok,...
we ate this kimchi instant from the video shop which looked very good from the outside but taste crappy from the inside. yeap. did not even finish half la. talked about stupid stuff and all.
thanks tu, i love you ok=)
and that woman 'blew' fruit punch all over my pinofore. great job great job-_-. (as i secretly plan my revenge,...hmmmm)
princess hours very nice to watch ah?? ahahaha,.. everyone's watching it except me,... really! hahaha,... na,... not a korean fan though.
you know i have never gotten to eat my western food???!!!!
ytd,.. the waiting time was too long,... i cancelled it.
today my family went all the way to some western stall and it was closed,... its not as if they always wanted to eat that. but,...!!! ah ya.
whatever,... happy or not. i decide.
talked on the phone with bel today and made up stuff like holland, ireland, germany and all!! wanted to do so much tmr,... then now i got no idea whats happening. boo.
i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
and watch the stars crash in the sea
if i could ask god just one question
why arent you here with me~
tonight....
-someday we'll know. by many different singers. lovely=)
Sex in the afternoon. hahahahahaha!!!!!
wow.....
todays like freakin freakin feakin long
and todays my birthday! and it felt like my birthday was spread over 2 days!!! hahaha. tell you why later. i dont really think its any special day anyway,...
rahhhhh
you know i had so much things to say!!!!!
then know its like so hard to put it all down,...
but nevertheless,..... i would try!!!!!!!!! cuz i wont ever forget,....
the dancers!!!!!!!!
STEPH, JANA, SHIHUA, DAPH, NAT AND LIS NAT!!!!!!
THANK YOU YOU ALL SO MUCH OK!!!!
ytd,... us,... the 4 babes ME, BEL, JAMIE AND ZAN went to spc to have our lunch cuz we were sick of canteen food and needed air con badly,.. so yeah,... besides that, we were wondering where the hell ppl were disappearing to. anyhow,.... to cut the long story short,....
and when we went back to the canteen,....
first,....i saw 2 CAKES on the table,.... second,... i saw the SWENSENS TAPE,... I WAS LIKE OMG OMGOMGOMG,... all the way,... i was like,... hello???? is this a surprise or what???
hahahaha,... the october babes were like stunned and all that!!!! you guys dont know how touched we were ok!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!
we sang the birthday song and had so much fun eating the chocolate and cookies and cream cake~!!!! we were like laughing and taking pics!!! jamie put cream on my face, and in return got cream on her hair!!! hahaha.
you know bel and i had plans that we would somehow get a cake and i even got the swensens brocher to drool at!!! and i tought it was somewhat impossible,.... when,.. this happened!!!!
i found out that STEPHANIE LEONG!!!! had planned this a long time ago!!!!!
I LOVE YOU SOOOOO FREAKIN MUCH ok!!!! hahaha!!!
oh my god!!!! that day daph was like coming over to collect money for nat's joggaton card... i was like what??!!! HAHAHHA,... shi and daph's acting were pretty good too!!!!
once again wanna thank you all sooooo much ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it brightened everything man!!!
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ohhhh yes,....
i blogged annabels birthday wishings on my class blog!!!! omg!!!! so embarrassing ok!!!!! rahhhh,...
i only knew it when dahlia told me like the next day,...
i acted cool la,.. i was like,... "oh??? i didnt know,..."
but i tell you,.... i was freaking shocked and embarrassed!!!!
hahaha! bel still has the cheek to laugh at me!!!
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and the sec 3s were all at the hall for ss checking of scrips....
i guessed i was talking la,... then ms hamida looked at me,... and i just looked back at her,... and she gave me this weird smile and after a few seconds she spoke through the mike
" number 13 from 3e9, can you stand up?"
oh no,.. i am in trouble,... ok so i stood up and tried to look serious cuz indeed i was in the wrong right,....
hahaha,... i looked around and there were like a sea of ppl,.. i was all the way at the corner of the classes thats why. i wanted to laugh but i knew i couldnt!
then she asked me,
" are you a communist?"
i was like what???!!!
then ms hamida asked everyone
" is she a communist?"
i thought i heard them say no,... hahaha!!!!
hahahaha!!!! i really had no idea whats going on man!! then ppl were like asking me if i really was a communist later,... this is freakin funny la.
ai yo.
hahahaha
today,... CIAPS SANG ME THIS REALLY WEIRD HUMPTY DUMPTY SONG..... hahah!!!! thanks for everything!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!
and the tooterians after school,kuku was suppose to be with me the whole time like a info transporter.....
they asked this junour to pass me this card and a plastic bag saying it was from someone else,...
i was like cool,.. cuz it wasnt signed off. then when i was happily reading it,... they came up to me and went,.." YOUVE BEEN TOOTED!!!!"
Haahahahaha
then i opened the present and all!!! thank you pat and gita who went through so much trouble to get me my present,... heard you guys went nuts looking for it! thank you!!!
then yaya went like,... hey how bout the inside??? ok,.. so i opened it,......
and guess what?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THERE WAS LIKE A BLOODY MOLLY INSIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SCREAMED LIKE THERE WAS NO TMR AND JUST GRABBED PATS ARM and screamed nonstop. can you imagine the molly so near your freakin face???!!! it was placed btw the plastic ok!!!i realised it was fake but its like i still cant stand anything with the same colour and shape and slimy and idiotic and looks exactly the same as the real kind of molly.
WHAT THE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my god!!!!!
dont ever play that again ok!!!!!! it was pats idea la!!!! and you know what,.. yaya,.. took the molly out and put it inside her blouse???!!!!! like just dropped it into her blouse??!!! what the??!!! i was still screaming cuz i cant stand the thought that someone can actually touch that ghasty thing!!!!
arrrgh!!!! and they had fun laughing-_-
had our tooterian hugs and kisses and i wanna say i love everyone of them alot alot!!!
hahaha,... oh ya,....
wanna thank everyone who had put in effort to make today a wonderful occasion for me yeah?? !!!!
love you!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
18.10.91
who is like the who???
ANNABEL tang!!!!
*AHHHH!!!!!!*( ah!! bimbo!)
hahaha,.. YEAH,..
your bestestttttt char siew bao twin would like to wish you
A BLASTING SIGNIFICANT BIRTHDAY ON THE day a little bun was born!!!!!
well,..... youre like older now alright,.. bear that i mind,...=)
may you be enlightened with the purest light and the shinest star shine gloriously for you!!!!
yeah!!! i love you!!! and may ahem,. love you more!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!
HAHAHA,... TODAY WAS SORTA CRAPPY
i didnt have a good feeling about it anyway. english,... was just damn disappointing. i never got that kind of marks before. i rmbed saying. OH SHIT! when i saw my results. rahhhh
anyway,... shi gave me a huge shock with her hair. hahaha,... good change la=) since she told me she wanted sth new. but i like the last time better. anyway,...
we did the pirates thingy,... really enjoyed it=) i dont know whats wrong with dumb bell. we just cant stop laughing at nothing! i love that curvy wave thing on the floor!!!!
hahaha,... we miss steph!!!!
anyhow,.. we were at the swing where we stick blotters on our faces and we indeed looked like char siew baos!!!! ahahahahaha,...
damn funny!
ok,... oh hell its like chem paper tomorrow right,... why cant they give like maths or amaths or sth else
and i really pity the person who marked my geog paper ok,... i think she would be going throght like loads of shit,... however,.. it would be like freakin easy to total up the scores.
sigh,... and i was so fedup with the wdv shitty camera folder
ohhh,.. hahaha
its going to be bel birthday tmr!!!!!
i don know what to do
will prolly be getting her a belated present,.. but,...
i will definately be there with her tmr la,!....
she knows i am always there when she needs me lor!!!
and thats more than what a significant present can mean ok!!!
i love you babe!!!
hahaha,.. you better love me more.
and and and,... if you realise its bels birthday,....
that means ITS GOING TO BE MY BIRTHDAY!!!!
YES,... CUZ MINE IS ONE DAY AFTER HERS!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA,... i dont really look forward to it,..so,... ahem,...
however the tooterians are like going to give this '''surprise ''''' present..... hahahah!!!! you know right,.. i had to choose my own present !!!! cuz they know and i know that our taste are like 2 worlds apart. so yeap!!!
the plans bel and i made with 30 candles are like so impossible now,...ah ya,... we had thought so much nice thinking bout it though=)
hahaha. ok
blog bout my tooterians outing another day!!! + lots of ridiculous pics!
wishing for tmr be another blessing=)
OH WOW,... its been like ages since i blogged.
ytd,... i dont know why i was just to tired or sth. forgot how to type.
oh hell. hahaha,... went over to janas place. its like a new condo or sth,.. the pools very big and we kept shifting here and there.
hahaha,... i think bel is just dumb,.. oh and we wore shades while swimming,... how fanstastic is that??? i didnt swim much though,...just drifted here and there.
we sat at the chairs and sun tanned although it didnt do much difference to me. we talked and all that, oh bitched too. and really really missed steph,.. she didnt go... she had sth to do *cough* sth very impt. hahaha
some other day ciaps in full yeah!!! had plan for long that on monday would be celebrating bels and mine combined birthday since hers is one day before mine. i only wanted to put up a photo of the 3 of us and the blogger didnt allow me to. wow. =(
oh,... yaya can eat already!!!! yay!!! browies?=) cakes!!! our combines perfect baking master piece!!! hahaha,.. i rmb last year was also like this !!! she sent me this stupid msg bout the her peeing and crap.
you know, i was at yayas blog where she wrote this tribute to the librarians for our birthday! i think i laughed and cried reading it! shes so sweet! hahaha. the funny thing is. i dont really have much memory bout the moments she wrote about! haha and guess what not one tooterian can rmb another tooterians birthday!!!!
i dont know what is wrong but its like i cant rmb anyones bithday! i kept thinking gitas one is on the 14th, pats on the 25th( they are both wrong) , i think. and i cant rmb kukus or yaya's at all!!!! my god!! pat thought mines on the 18th and gita thought mines on the 14th.
how interesting
anyhow!!!! i have this sudden urge to write down everyone who had made an impact in anyway or any place or time in this life of mine.to thanks you all or write a statment i have never been able to say.
holy cow.... long list,... long list,....
i may not be able to finish in just one post but i will continue,... perhaps you would find yourself among the list=) god. i am having a headache. ouch. sorry thats random.
okokokok,... i will need to think about it,.. the list of people whom i wanna write about. ok,... i shall plan and do a reflection.... soon dears soon=)
the stars shall shine and the moons shall cow. oh my god. ok. its the cows shall moo.