man,........................................................................................................
i bloody miss my tooterians la. i miss them like shit, i miss them like hell and kanina-wa.kakakaka, i do hate myself for losing them. its like we used to be together, forever, everywhere. anywhere at any occasion. man,..... we cracked stupid jokes, make stupid songs, actions. wa lao,.... they make me love my own exsistence in this world,.... every single one of them,.... KUKU, PAT, GIT, YAYA. love them to the very end of my girlled fish with herb and tomato sauce. without you guys,... i wont be even knowing why i should be happy. you taught me what it felt like to be happy, to love the every cell that make you up to a human body.man,......
today, decided to have a tooterians outing at pats house for a brownie baking session after sports day.((((( our class, 3e9 was the overall champion!!!!!!!)))) went to get the ingredients and all but plan A failed. we were too lazy and had our tooterian Bonding and Bitching Chatting session on the lovey floor outside pats brother's room. well,. thats was when i realised i lost a huge part of ME since the last bbc time. the amount of muscles excercised when i laughed and smiled, the amount of weight lifted from my heart and make it lighted hearted and happy. the amount of love a friendship can bring is far too much that money can buy.
it reason i think we are not like any other clique is like. we are made for each other, you know what i mean,.... there is no pretend here and there, no bitching behind. if theres anything,.... we'll be like. " gita, you damn irritating leh, i hate you, bitch!" (hahahahaha, git, joking only la) and then , like forget whatever bad shit we have 2 mins later and would be erased from our mind for eternity. we wont go like telling bad stuff about eachother behind,... probably thats why we could stand so strong, no internal injures. ... if like one of them is missing, it feels funny, like so incomplete. maybe its like we care about one another so much, none of them are like self centred. anything, we share, when 1 of us is happy, everyones happy, but when the opposite, we would be sad together. Together, everything together. woww,.... anything in the world man, take anything away, dont take them away.....
i planted a kiss on every single cheek of everyone of them!!!!!! before we had to leave. we were at the door step, as usual, it wasnt raining,..... (the weather was always fine, then when we finally bear to separate, it will rain, bloody jun!!!!) then i will start my normal groaning, i dont want to go,...... i dont want to go,,,,,............then today, i was like,.... i wanna kiss you all...... they just look at me like..... oh.......say only la, like one of her silly rubbish.......i went round in a circle,.... i kissed pat first, then kuku then yaya,.... and then gita..... muak!!!!!! when i finally looked at them all,.... i realised they were stoned. pat was like stoned....... as usual,.... but alittle more serious. kuku and yaya was like dazed and shocked and smiling and unaware what was happening. like hello???? DANA LEONG THE BABE JUST KISSED YOU????? gita too was shocked. everyone were shocked la, except me. then,.........i shouted,. i want a kiss too!!!!!!!!
but then , those 4 crazy people were just too block. i thought that, everyone would like want to kiss me. then suddenly, it was like they still stoned!!!!! can you believe it???? anyway, i can,,,,, its not just anyone, its DANA THE BABE, that embodded a kissy on your face. i can understand.
hahahahaha.... end up only gita kissed me,.... but like so unwillingly=( hahahaha.... then found out that yaya and kuku blushing leh!!!!!! hahahahaha. pat was like , stoned. ok, anyway, no more other expression for her hor. hahahaha, i think it would kill her to kiss someone else!!!!! hahahaha, for starters she should kiss mua, then the tooterians then her boyfriend!!!!! hahahaha, i would laugh till my teeth drop out la!!!!!! pat kiss her boyfriend!!!!!
anyhow,.... i should plan a new kissing session!!!!!! hahaha . crap.
TOOTERIANS!!!!!!!! YOU ROCK MY WORLD, LOVE YOU TO THE HONEY COMB BITS LEFT OVER IN THE SWEET WRAPPER AND THE BURNT BROWNIE AT THE SIDE OF THE TRAY!!!!!!!!!!! MUAK!!!!!!!!!!
i love you guys more then i love myself!!!!
woooooow,..... after so long,....
i felt so terrible man, the whole of yesterday, i think i slept for 24hrs,.. all that giddy spells
i was so feverish and i fainted on the floor of my parents room. my mum came in and was like screaming la, "dana!!!! you ok or not?????" and dragged me up the bed. ya, i thought, i died, hahaha,. ok,... i think i landed on my hand thats why, it hurts so much now, it bruised. my mum told me she heard sth drop, and thought nothinging of it, then she thought, better check it out. then , she got a shock la, seeing me spread on the floor on all fours.
ok,..... i think its stomache flu, make me so sick. the highest temperature recorded was 39.4. haha, sounds like the wheather temperature of dana's head.
yeah, i missed bothe Amaths and Emaths ca. haiiiiii, what to do?
i was looking forward to the amaths leh, cuz, i practiced very hard.
hai,....... sad life
on a completely different note,
but i just told steph,..... why i am sooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!
dont you care, rarrr
Nobody Wins----
Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight than walk away
What a lonely way to breathe the air
What another lovely way to say you care
Now we're too far gone for me to say
And I never thought that we'd come to this
Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight than walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away, another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins
Searching for the truth in your eyes
Found myself so lost, don't recognise
The person now that you
You claim to be
Don't know when to stop, or where to start
You're just so caught up in who you are
Now you're far too high for me to see
And I'd never thought that we'd come to this
Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight than walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away, another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins
You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that you love me
But don't assume, it's too late to take it back
Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight than walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away, another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins
(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
Nobody wins
this was what the silly us were doing after the softballers left!!!!
ok, i dont know why but i think its pretty cool, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA cuz dahlia and grace are coming over to my house now at 8pm to teach me the new steps they had came up with with their senior.
its because there wont be time for them to teach me or the rest 2moro morning as they have to leave very early, thus the reason for us to be forced to perform our routine on monday (instead of 2moro)after the holidaies.
so, ya,.... so excited for no reason at all. i guess it probably be, that no one has came to my house this "late" before la.
and just now dahlia called and we were discussing on what was the prefect plan for her to teach me/us.
plan1: go to school 2moro at 6.30am. right,.....
then suddenly she was like: can we like meet up now? like now? i tot: man, its like 7?! but,.... hahaha still ok=) so they are coming.!!!!!
hahahaha,... very happy, for a simple reason, they are coming!!!! ..... so,... what?(my brain always have this unusual voice speaking the opposite of what i feel, its very weird leh) so i realise that sometimes when i write stuff, this inner voice would just make its pressence felt and i would just write it down whats its saying ya..... right,.....
ok,.... gtg,.... i am in my jumpy mood now!!!! chao!
ok,... cheerleaders reading this, there is a pratice 2moro at my house after the semifinals, compulsury=) yup, expect for the softballers duh,. be brushing up on everything and ya, new steps=)
yummy yummy!!! it was taken from a mirror!!!
wa lao, how old already still go and act cute?!!!but really quite cute la!!!!hahaha
sandy la, go and dont know what change the colour, now become like this.
this is the image that appears in everyone's mind when they gain consciousness,~ the darlings, like angels, smiling and reassuring them that you are fine,~ while you're lying on the hosipital bed....nothing can beat that feeling when you're sure you're surrounded by your loved ones...
so innocent....
ok la, thats me and sandy on sunday, photo whoring at the studio. taken with my camera-phone plus blur effect=)
we tied our hair to the side, haha so funny, a bit like siao ja bo, but i like!!!!
i sent these pics to sandy through bluetooth, then she sent it back to me through msn,. hahaha
yay!!!!! i went out today!!!!
with of course, dahlia, sandy, han yi and grace!!!!!!!!! a bunch of my favourite people!!!! hahaha
actually, fiona was suppose to go, but last minute she had to go back to her hometown=(
ok, so nevermind, we had fun without her, huh!!!!
sooo, woke up very early today to see a chinese doctor, cuz my health is so called weak=( ok,... so i wanted to meet dahlia at bout 12, then this girl dont know what, still in the library at12. 30. so, my parents went to pick her there and we went together and reached cine leisure bout 1.15.
this woman was really muddy, litterally, she was brown from top to toe!!!!!!!!! ok, brown hair, brown shirt, brown pants, brown shoes and.... brown bag!!!!!!!!!my goodness, she does love brown haha!!! and when i called muddy, she actaully responds!!!!!!!!
we walked around and i bought this pretty handphone strap, i had such a hard time picking it out from a colony of other really cute ones. dahlia was like, you just anyhow take one la!!! then she finally got grace a birthday present, it was this huge porcelin cup, haha, very cute
so, then, han yi and sandy came, i thought sandy look pretty cool, she was wearing this baggy amy print pants, ya,....
went to eat, and blah blah
haha, we bought food, nachos, pop corny, drinks and all and it was like we had to pay2.60 each!!!!! very expensive, but,..what to do?
then , grace came!!!!!!!! i thought she looked like some model who just stepped out of a magazine cover la!!!! got air around her one leh!!!!haha, she did impressed me=)
ok, we watched BIG MAMA2. it was good, 3.1/4 stars, it was entertaining and the plot, was of enough punch, ya, as in content too. go watch it, and i caught some steps of cheerleading, haha
oh, han yi and dahlia sat on both sides of me, i thought dahlia laugh very loud, i actually i think i also la.ok,.... whatever....
thenthenthen, we went to take neos!!!!!!!!! very fun!!!!! the outcome was pretty good. and sandy, (my best friend????!!!!) took another one, and i owe her 4 bucks. it was disappointing but, acceptable la, can you imagine there was only 2 shots???!!!! anyway, we headed back home, and we walked all the way to orchard mrt with them,...grace hany and dahlia going fareast ,sandy and i going home. that walk/journey was quite memorable. its like i never felt that we had to part. in the blist of it, dahlia took pictures with her new camera, she looked like a professional photographer, haha.
so bloody fun
then,..... we finally reached the mrt. i did not want to go, the urge for me to stay was so strong la. but, hai,.... it was like 5 sth, very early to you people, but,....
i was really sad, i cant explain why, i cant bear to leave leh, its unbelievable isnt it?
a few of you watch movie only what? what cant bear to go? meet again la?!... but,... i dont know.... unexplainable,... maybe, it means alot to me?those people, the company and the joy,...
ok, then we took a final photo and we left, but fortunately i got sandy, the cousin of muddy. haha, through the train ride. lucky got her, if not i already forgot i need to change train.
my best friend ah??? my best friend also stay in kemangan leh, huh.... my best friend stay in villa marina meh???
ohohoh ,ya, i did not mention that on sunday, sandy came to my house for a short while, we were suppose to come up with steps for cheerleading, and yes we did, for the tilt me thingy.
oh goodness!!!!!!!!!, it was bloody fun, and i must cry!!!!!! i finally found a Werido, whom, like me,... dance like no ones watching!!!!!!!!!!! we were shaking our booties and dancing to really cool music and moves!!!! its like, no one, i mean not a single human being dare come and dance their butts out in front of me, without a trace of shame, i mean,... thats cool!!!!! i know i used to do that, then people will give cold stares like 'whats that??!!!' or "cool!!!! but refuse to join in the fun. then , the moment is lost, no one likes to dance alone.....
i just open to some britney spears' then we just started dancing, inpromto~!!!!!
so bloody cool!!!! and its of some standard k?!!!!
hahaha, and some more we are both about the same height so, its like,... hey cool!!!!!
i mean, i was really glad i found her, amongst the vast crowd of people,...
i was dreaming( cannot dream meh??!!!) that we can form this band where we can sing and dance, it like i am from dance and she is from choir, wow, lovely. dreaming only la, then go international, hahahahahaha, dreaming only la!!!!!!!!!!! dont come and slap my face!!!!
haha, ok, lovey, lovey
Dance, dance, Dance!!!!
my goodness!!!!! i enjoyed myself soooo much today during dance man!!!!
mr fathu sashayed in as usual with his huge housefly sunnglasses, and a nike sling bag all cool and arrogant.... except for his new hair cut which i find pretty ammusing. it was like the head of a cockeral. like spikes and all. we were like 'mr fathu new hair cut ah?' then he said' cool..... right!!!!''' ''' ya, right-_-'''
ok,...we were supposed to do our usual warm-ups like the sleeping game and chair game but we gave it a miss cuz ms chaim and mrs thiong came to see how our public performance is progressing.
so, we had to go to our positions and all, practice and practice, i tell you ah, my hands hurt so much cuz of all those turning of our fingers and every point and finger needs mucsles to give that perfect action, you know malay dance need all that fingerly thing. then, all sec2s were absent cuz they had some amazing grace-_-. ok,.... soo after some time, we went to take a break.
i was so jumping and happy like my normal self. and mr fathu always mumble sth like i am so noisy in malay.
ok,. and he calls me JOY!!!!! ARRRRhhhh!!!!
today i told him angryly that i am not 'joy' and you know what he said?
he said ' i dont care ' wth right?
then i ask him what my real name is, and he replied ' dont know, dont care'
HUH!!!!
so bad!!!!!!! cuz he claims i look like joy, as in the sec 4 dance senior, its a compliment though, but,...
firstly, i dont look like her!!!!!
secondly,... its very embarrassing, cuz i am not close to the real joy.
3rdly,... i am like living in her shadow, not exactly la,... but!!!!!
4thly,.... i am not joy, which is like duh!!!
lastly,...!!!! arrrrr, he still does not know my real name!!!!!
he calls everyone names la, like
HONG KONG
SINGAPORE
BALLET
PETTIE
GIFTED(as in like smart, gifted)
SMALL EYES
DANIEL(ya, he called me that on one of those days)
and so much more la, like change everyday.
SO, i do count myself lucky, i wont want to be called hong kong?!!!!
okokokokokokok, its nice to be in his lesson, cuz its like no stress, you can just complain about anything under the sun to him or about him. but, you just have to be warned when he just say 'SHUT UP LA!!!' like very rudely, but we just laugh it off,... sometimes it just depends on his mood. but today, he was very happy. =)
ok,.... so we were suppose to get into groups of 4 and me, wanying, nut and some sec 1 junior(sorry, dont know her name) got together. we had to cheograph a dance with a theme ' ocean' , the other groups were like ' fire' , 'desert' and 'forest'. so cute=), yup, so, we were the ocean gp.
while we were like coming out with steps, he came to disturb us, do you know what he did????!!!!!
he hanged horizontally on the bar!!!! like totally clinging on to it!!! (see pic on top)then i laughed like hell like an insane person and shouted'' he look like pork on a satay stick!!!! then he came down the bar and hit my head. and everyone started laughing, like roasted pig!!!! hahahhaa, so funny
okokok,... then we did so many stupid things, and keep on laughing, its like me wanyee and him, nut was pretty much very quiet.
so we had to do some sea creatures and mr fathu went like a puffer fish, a stingray, a squit, and we did stuff like crabs, stupid fishes, octopus, and i did the osyter!!!! ok,... last but not least the sea cucumber!!!!, we just cuddle our body and stayed like a dumb stone.... hahahaha, very silly
yupyup, we were like laughing on our tummy like rolling down a hill!!!! hahahaha
so,..... serious bussiness,... we all brained stormed and i came up with lots of silly stuff not knowing that mr fathu was looking.... OHOHOHOHOHO YA,....... that reminds me!!!!! last year when i dont really know him,... i was like shaking my butt outside the studio with nut and the others and all hahahaing. when i suddenly turned around and saw him looking at me!!!! they all knew la, but no one told me!!!! then he started laughing or sth and say sth like you can shake ah.!
the next thing i knew was, i covered my face and started running round and screaimg!!! it was bloody embarrassing!!!!
ok-__- not funny,.... well, right,....
anyway, back to the part where i was cheographing, he said to like us ' joy, very,*^&%$%^&*!@%& ah?! which meant very 'innovative' in english.
then he said to mua :
' next year got SYF right??? you want to be in my malay or in that ms chaim ballet???
i was like : i can choose meh???
he ask again : you want to be in malay SYF of in ballet???
i thought :' it will really hurt him if i said i dont know cuz i am like now in a MALAY class with him being my teacher"
then, i just said :' i can choose meh???i thought is the teacher choose???
then he said : no la, its you all choose (like real) so,... i choose you la!!!! then he gave a silly smile.
i was thinking eh,... i not bad leh, you know to go for SFY , is not easy to get through to the 'school team', need audition one. so,.. its like even before it even starts next year somebody already want to 'choip' me leh!!!!.
so, i guessed(guess only what, cannot meh?!!!) that ms chaim came in and saw me dance and told mr fathu that i dance very nicely, if i were to do ballet it would be great!!!!
(dream on)
okokokokokok,......
just keep dancing , just keep dancing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love dancing!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha,
today was boring, its like there was no aim for anything, we had 2 free periods and ya, i did not do anything i had to do. blah,.
ohohohohoh!!!!! and i got my phone already!!!! its in orange!!!! and i love it soooo much!!!! actually i wanted the pink one, but then they dont have it. so i took the orange. and its still as nice!!!! the camera funtion is like so bloody fun!!!! haha. you know everyone who saw it said that its very nice leh!!!!
well, yesterday was kuan yee's birthday, i guess it was the day she was most blessed. yup, she received soooooo many presents and when i mean many, i meant reallly alot. you should see the freakin cute stuff ppl gave her. and the thing i was most amazed was from alexa. this girl gave her best frined i think more than 7 presents altogether, its like they are not even cheapskate at all!!! a billabong wallet, a jar full of homemade cookies, me to you keychain, handphone strap, really cutee mirror, a huge handmade card and a handmade 'magazine' with all their photos inside, soo bloody sweet... and i still think got more.
you must be thinking what i got for her right?
hhahaha, it was sth i made myself. i bought this wood thingy in a heart-shaped form and decorated on it. i spent so long doing it and i almost ruined the whole thing. fortunately, i managed to make it look presentable. you know what, when i was finally done,.. i realised it looked like a freakin cookie!!!!!! soo,... i made a box and wrote 'cookie box' on the outside.hahaha.
ok. so the next day, i gave kuan yee the present, and when she opened the box, guess what? she actually took the wood and tried to bite!!!!! hahahahaha, soooo funny!!!!!! and she wasnt even faking!!!! i was shouting at her, 'kuan yee!!!! you cant eat that! its wood!!!! then she went, wood meh? cookie what?!!! and tried to bite it again!!! i was laughing like mad la at that time. does she not know how to tell the different???!!!! soooo silly. hahaha!!!!!!
show you the picture of the 'cookie' next time, i have it in my phone, need to upload it.
and today, kuan yee told me that her mum said my 'cookie' was very cute!!!! haha
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today, i ran to lyn and kneeled down in front of her. and was like 'crying' and screaming for her to forgive me at the corridoor, ppl thought i was mad. lyn got a shock i guess, ya, you know what, i forgot her birthday!!!!!! i tot it was like in april but then it was in febuary, passed already. you might think, no big deal what, give belated present la,. but,..... no! of all ppl i cant believe i did not know this mad girl's birthday. she went to great extends to get me a birthday and christmas present. but me? i just gave her sth silly for her birthday and forgot to pass her the chirstmas present untill now!!!!
how wonderful-_-
soo,.... to make it up to her, i treated her lunch today and giving her her present 2moro, evn though its a bit too late. but,... hai,... i am still so disappointed in myself.
i realise that i am super absent mined, i can be told sth, and in 1 min i can forget eveything bout it. mymy..... is there cure?
ok,.... whatever, cheerleading its like next week,... what the hell. and CHERYL!!!!!! welcome to be one of us!!!! this stupid alicia neh neh la, last minute say cannot join=( huh!
well, please go sew your skirt!!!!!!!!!!!!
are you telling me those are just facades? no, i dont want to understand, give me back those feelings, those comforts in the soul. dont walk away, you are smiling, why are you smiling when you leave? i dont like to be alone, you have to stay, i miss you far too much....
hey, you know what,
i think fiona aka fifi is mad,
she can be so weird but funny at times!!!! hahaha,
i am really grateful to her la, for helping me do my maths the other day=)
she very helpful one
yup, this girl ah,...
you know what i am going to change my phone on friday!!!!! i am so excited!!!!!
i can hardly wait, i am going to get the samsung clam phone, the one that comes in 5 different colours!!!! i think i would chose either pink or orange, i dont know la, see how first. yup, you might be thinking, cha,... that phone old model liao. but,..... i have been dreaming bout it ever since it was released lor.
it has alll the features that was ever invented, it has flash and that LED light or sth so you can take photos and vidoes in the dark,. and it has a big big memory space!!!! yup, music player and all that.
actually i would miss my old phone alot,. i bought it around 5oo++ last time and now it dropped to a frakin $60!!!!!mymy
ya, my old phone took an atrocious time to load and save the photos, and always jam. but the ring tones inside are very nice=)i dont know la,....i will really miss it
ok,..... you dont know how happy i was today ok!!!!!!
before the start of school,.... i asked all cheerleaders to meet at the void deck during recess , and although they were all late,.... they were there, alll 11 of them plus me la!!!!! OMG, you know the 12 cheerleaders had never met in a group at 1 time before? i was bloodly happy, everyone came!!!! go 3e9!!!!!!
GO CHEERLEADERS, 2 MORE WEEKS TO GO!!!!!
you dont know how much i missed you,.. do you care? from the corner of my eyes, i stare at you,. why? it changed, and i dont want that to happen. it feels like we dont know each other anymore,... i cant help but cry, are you willing to try again if there is one last chance?