i dont know,..... all of a sudden, i got this huge urge to dance,.... like dance, like mad, dance till i get drained, dance till i sweat,....dance till i drop. i dont wanna talk, i dont wanna sing, i just wanna move, and shake in this big space, full of mirrors,... bright lights,... a radio,.... blasting cool music,.... and just me myself,.... dancing like no one's watching,... to get the things off my head,... and not give a damn to whats happening or has happened. my god,.... give me that,.... i dont have space now,....
arrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!
i am so confused myself,.... so whats the big deal bout.
makes no sense. why do you care. why are you so self inflicting?
it makes me happy. it makes me feel good. it makes me sad.
it makes me even loneier when you are here, when you are gone.
no one had made me feel this way. it comes endlessly. but... so on and off,...
i dont even know.... so what now. i dont want to risk anything,.
is it worth it? worth them,.. ? the people i love? i emphazied to much already.
maybe i would like to tone it down,? but how?
i want it to stop, you know. i tried but i failed,..
but it sorta changed... its lesser now i guess,,. good for me. hahaha,... you will never know,... oh probaby later,....
sometimes i wonder what i did was right or wrong....
hahaha, i am so contradicting.... i give in, i helped out, to you,...
when i know i want it too. but i am glad, at least i know
i am not heartless nor selfish. i like to see another person happy i guess.
it comes from within my heart.... hahaha,... is this all a joke or what?
i think that maybe friendships are even stronger,yup,...
here and there,... everywhere,...people are abnormal,...
it comes and go. get upset and forget about it.
what a weird life. hahahahahaha
i think this whole entry is crap,........