Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @6:32 AM
confusing la!!!!
i dont know what to think ok,...
i felt trusurrounded by this huge mass of white puffy clouds,
which are amazingly not cute,..
instead, i took a long while to realise they were just,
haze,..
making me feel all bloated up and choked
so tense and overwhelmed, so insecure and so upset
whats the problem,
what is the question i heed to solve.
oh my god.
fed me up with all kinds of rubbish that was disgused as pretty little sunshines
emotions
be it a simple smile of happiness
or a frown that depicts sadness
i want neither
things should be pure,...
elated signs, grim expressions.
neither.
when you are brought to another stage of emotional high,...
you will change the expectations of the so called happiness,
you would raise your standards
you will realise that sth you had never knew
could be of so much fun and excitment.
little did you know,...
or rather, never had you gotten ready your backup plan,...
your stablising of balance.
or that there would be no safety net for you to fall on,.. to catch your weight
when all of a sudden
everything that you trust
decided to pull out on you
to draw back from where everything was beautiful and perfect.
or rather to where nothing was created or formed.
oh dear
you look around and found nothing
the debris?
the collaspe?
the sacrness?
maybe.
ouch,... its alright, it will be fine tomorrow.
you have plasters.
then you will see,.. you would be more awake and
you would shine brighter,
than yesterday.
you put on a bloody smile,... the hollowness glows from inside.
now,
you begin to learn.